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-= disillusion's reel =- Every time I try to understand The meaning hidden deep into my heart I crumble down the taste of losing all Is always bitter when I sip from my cold blood Losing what when there is nothing much to gain? Stop yourself and have a thought Watch your life Mother earth is there, emotionless to your eyes You can love her sons, but at the end you're all alone Come and dance this reel, disillusion's for real Stop yourself for god's sake, try to take a look at yourself How can you pretend of having my faith Of gaining all the respect and the love that I can give I even hardly believe in myself Where is the tunnel white, they told me of? Losing what when there is nothing much to gain? Stop yourself and have a thought Watch your life Mother earth is there, emotionless to your eyes You can love her sons, but at the end you're all alone Come and dance this reel, disillusion's for real Stop yourself for god's sake, try to take a look at yourself This was written at 4:03 pm on Wednesday, September 27 -= or would it? =- Here we are, lay it all out, We're at the edge of the cliff, Sorrowful yet glorious, in a way, We take this final bow, As the final chapter is being written. Memories laid buried beneathe the ashes, Burnt away like the body of a deceased, There's nothing left to do, Nothing left to hope for. Patiently, we await this closing chapter. Is it over? Is it done? Or has it just begun? It grows apart, Yet it feels like, It's closer, Than it has ever been. It wouldn't hurt to end it now. Or would it? This was written at 12:51 am on Wednesday, September 20 -= is this enough? =- Dreamt that a huge explosion wept out almost everything. Only about a hundred of us survived. Almost everyone I knew died. Everything I owned was vapourized. All that was left was a rather run down block of flats. Then all of us gathered in front of the block an just looked to the sky. There it was, the black sky and the red moon. This was written at 8:18 pm on Tuesday, September 5 |
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